I was flying back to Houston after a week long visit to Pittsburgh to see family and friends. I hadn’t been home since the beginning of the year, and what a year it had been. I spent the first few months of 2019 really focusing on myself, and not what society expected of me. I spent a lot of time cracking myself open to myself – really training myself to be vulnerable with just me!
Since last being home, I had left my Instructor Manager role at my previous studio and began to teach Lagree. I launched a start-up company, embarked upon ambassadorships for some amazing companies, dated a guy, broke up with said guy (side note: shout out to all the people in life who designed for seasons…let em go, people, let em go…) I auditioned for SoulCycle and put my entire life on hold as I moved to New York City to train for 5 weeks, and I returned to Houston to teach 20+ fitness classes per week. Oh, and I launched this blog.
Needless to say, there was a lot to catch up on. It was a great visit. I don’t get to travel too often, but when I do, I always carry my journal with me – I love “me time” on planes, where I can disconnect from everything. I’m a window seat kind of person, so yes, “me time” typically means stuffed into a corner with no arm room with my journal on my lap trying not to spill my ginger ale. Regardless, I love writing down my thoughts and visions, and on this particular trip, I flipped back to the beginning of the year to see what my goals had been for 2019.
It was quite hilarious to read – I had maybe planned a solid 30% of what actually happened in 2019, and the majority of the stuff that had come to fruition was extremely vague. I had written down a lot of goals that didn’t happen – but I thought if we expected good things to happen, they would? Trust me, they did – they just didn’t look like what I had written down.
Allow yourself to grow into your dreams. What was good enough for you yesterday might not be good enough for you today. It’s really as simple as that. No explanation needed. Why we’ve been trained to feel the need to justify ourselves after we say “I’ve changed my mind” is outrageous. Let’s let that go, shall we?
We tend to freak out when plans don’t work out the way we envisioned. Goals are amazing – and we do need to be forward thinkers – however, we cannot get stuck on goals that a less-evolved person made days ago, weeks ago, or even years ago. Don’t stick with the plan – stick with yourself! What does this version of you look like? What do you want the next version of you to look like? Work towards that, even if it’s ever-changing. (That’s a good thing, by the way.)
Should I have stuck with the version of myself on January 10, 2019 when I wrote down my goals I would have missed so much.
I planned to stick with my (then current) company and help build it to succeed. Instead, I outgrew my own goal and ended up at SoulCycle – an absolute perfect fit for me, where I can grow and thrive.
I aimed to plan one event over the entire course of the year that would bring fitness professionals together. Instead, I started an entire company based on abundance that is able to build the fitness community consistently.
I wrote down that I wanted to do a three day juice cleanse – this happened, but also led to becoming an ambassador for Revolucion Juice, and a few other companies after that.
I did actually write down in January that I wanted to teach a new format of fitness on the side of my main gig “for fun.” At the time, I had never even heard of Lagree. Shortly into the year, I began to instruct the format but could have never predicted how impactful the method, the studio, and all of the people I would meet were going to be in my life.
It’s funny – after I wrote down my goals for the year, I bought this very website. I had no idea what I wanted to do with it, but here we are. You don’t always have to know exactly where your vision will take you, and you certainly don’t have to stick to a plan that a version of yourself made a long time ago.
Some of my visions completely changed. Some of them turned out to be much bigger than my January goals allowed. Most I didn’t even see coming! That’s why it’s imperative to stay open to change.
One mantra that has ruled my 2019 is “Break the Mold,” because I want to change the way things are, change stigmas, change what’s not working and pioneer a new way of thinking. What I didn’t know at the time I decided to live by this mantra, was how important it would be to break my mold. Break the vision of myself I had on January 10, 2019 and allow for growth and new goals.
It’s uncomfortable not being able to see how everything is going to pan out. But this is what I constantly tell myself: If the version of myself that I’m in right now can see everything that is going to happen in my future, that tells me from now until [x spot in my future] that I will not have changed, grown, or evolved at all.
Have plans, sure. But more importantly, have visions. A general direction of what you want in life. I was lucky enough to dream build with my SoulCycle team at Southern Flow Yoga last week. The girl who led the session, Jordan, referred to vision as “a launch point.”
A launch point. The beginning – where anything can happen. Where anything can grow and change. And when it does change, please don’t worry or apologize. Go with it. Will it be scary? Yes. Will it be worth it? I’ll let you think about that one. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been scared in 2019. Being scared is a good thing! It means something is about to change…
When was the last time you wrote down some visions and goals for yourself? Grab your notebook, and write down a few ideas for where you envision yourself going!
Think back to January 1, 2019 – what has changed within you since then? How do you feel about that change?
Why do you think it’s uncomfortable for you to not see exactly how your plan might work out?
What are some things you can do to trust yourself more?
Trusting ourselves can be difficult. Being open to things we can’t see yet is even harder. But just remember: very few things in life actually require knowing all of the answers.